“SO YOU THINK I SUCK?!”
October 7, 2005 It is sooo against me to write/post something like this because as far as my blog is concern, I would just prefer to keep it as positive as possible. But with the hope that letting this out will somehow ease my anxiety, I decided I will go on anyways.
When we love another, we would certainly hate to complain about that person. BUT other times, IT is just the “other people” around us…
And these “other people”, in my case, (I think) only have two things in their head:
1. That they are always smarter [or AT LEAST THEY THINK THEY ARE! (I can name you one who’d definitely admit that she is and sometimes I just want to tell her: “can’t you just wait until someone tells you that and quit boasting?”)]; and
2. That dropping direct and indirect hints that this-or-that is my fault , or that I suck with this-or-that, or that this is what you should do because this is how I do it, etc. (and sometimes those hints even have curses!)…are fine!
I tell you those two are not so-OK because they can get into my nerves however hard I try to not let them get into it.
If you are reading this and you think you are one of those “other people” (hint: you know you are when one of those two above hit you, or may be even both of them), can I please suggest a few things?
DO know that being sensitive to other people’s needs (LIKE MINE) would be fine enough. You know, my need to be trusted and respected. Trust and respect that I can and/or should do and learn things on my own. I appreciate the fact that those “other people” are around to help but a little trust and respect on me won’t hurt you or anyone else (maybe except your ego). So try that…or consider being (or wait until you’re) in my shoes and think of how would you feel if you are in the exact situation as mine.
After all, if you “other people” would just stick to being your old selves, I know of a different “other people” who would be sensitive enough to care and understand me and whom I can REALLY rely on. But that’s just another story to tell.
P.S. I am not being a coward to not let those “other people” know how I exactly feel by writing/posting this and not dropping names. I am just waiting for the right time and the right moment to let them know how they are.
