AN OPEN LETTER TO DARA SMITH (You may pass this around ’til it reaches her husband)
May 19, 2006
I am writing this not because I am sorry for all the things I have told you and the people surrounding us, and not also because I have reacted badly at what you have done. I DO NOT FEEL SORRY FOR ALL THOSE.
You know that Monday night (May 15) when I have learned about what you two were doing to me, I couldn’t breathe! I was ranging in anger. I did not have anybody to run to. Considering that the only person I trusted here, that I thought was sincere to me, and that I thought was respectful of me was involved.
I’d just wanted to be with my Mother that night. But apparently, that is so impossible as she is at the other side of the world. And so as my real friends.
I felt stabbed at my back. Not only by him. But by you as well. You know how I treated you as my friend although I already have a hunch that I can hardly call you one. (I can even hardly call you a wife and a mother). I am a woman and I feel those. But who am I to judge you. After all, I thought you were indeed a friend.
He may be having problems with me and that’s what he said. But what hurts is that he couldn’t pinpoint to me what exactly is it that I did wrong. He couldn’t tell what is it that I did or did not do.
On the other hand, I was told that you were having problems with your family that’s why you moved out Friday, May 12. (You even told it to me over the phone).
But do you honestly think that it is all worth it to be flirty and a tease?????
I put him up in the pedestal. My family and friends were jealous of me. Jealous of the fact that I have almost everything. And every time people ask me how am I doing, I just would tell them I have never been happier in my life. Although there are times that he too, would have his own share of shortcoming. But I’d rather look past on those because after all he is only human. And I don’t want people to think that he’s the same as all men are.
Going back at you, I know I have not told this to anybody but I feel your eyes every time we see each other. I feel how jealous your looks are. I probably was right, because like what I said earlier I have almost everything. I may be married but I must admit that I still am getting what I want and I was not complained much about that.
There are times when I would feel that I pity you. I know that both you and “your husband” have your own jobs to fend for your family’s wants and needs. But it is always the same old stuff that you have.
A couple days after what happened, I heard from someone that she herself, would get worried if her husband is young and is just a few inches away from you. well you know what, I don’t feel that way. That the first time, I saw you and you have befriended me, I knew that you are not totally a threat to me.
You are the one who is jealous. You are the one who is a tease. You are the one who’s marriage is falling apart however hard you try to tell people that you have a good family. You are your husband’s problem and not the other way around. (After all, why is there a “Dave” in your life!).
Now you are scared of me. At what I am capable of doing back at you. You think I am going to get even? Well you don’t need to worry because I am not going to stalk at you like what you are worried of me doing.
Dara Smith, I am not doing that because I know where I stand. I know what I have and what you don’t. I know I would not just stoop down on your level. I know I pity you.
And you still have the nerve to ask me if we could still be friends? Are you even sane to think first before asking that? Well you can try everything but I am not lifting a finger to help you and to bring back to people how good your image was. If ever there really was one.
Oh you know what I just did after all these? Well I immediately replaced my daughter’s baptism certificate and have your name removed from the list of her godparents.
